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Preparing to sleep

Yes, it’s 9am and I’m already thinking about sleeping again. Can you blame me? Once this exam is over, I’m going back to the flat to sleep for a while before I start the mad panic of getting ready to go back to the mad house in Lisburn. I really wish I could stay in Glasgow but I think it’ll do me some good to get away from the flat for a few days. 

I’m looking forward to being able to sleep without being guilty though, any sleep recently has had me feeling guilty for not revising or job hunting. But when I get home, I can finally get back into the routine of no screens before bed! 

Some of you might question how that’s possible, especially when I seem to spend all day every day on my phone or using my laptop, but it’s not as difficult as you may think. The routine is a little different at home to what is here, but the overall aim is the same.
After dinner, I tend to pick what time I want to be asleep by. Whether it’s more revision, a particular chat I want to take part in, or the next episode of some must-see tv show is on, I take that into consideration and set my bedtime for an hour after whatever it is finishes. An example of that would be, last night I knew I wanted to be asleep by 11 o’clock because of my exam this morning. The final Twitter chat that I considered taking part in started at 9pm and so if I was to be off my phone at 10 it would give me an hour before sleep.

When the clock struck 10, I put my phone on the charger and started removing makeup and brushing teeth. I then read for half an hour, sometimes I knit, to take me to 10:40 when I then get into bed and follow a 20 minute guided meditation programme to help me shut down for the night. 
Normally when I do this I get a fantastic night’s sleep. Now I know there are a lot of people who don’t like reading in bed, or never learnt to knit. So I thought I’d provide a list of other things you could do for the hour before bed.

  • Tidy. People claim that a tidy room helps you sleep better.
  • Prepare meals for the next day.
  • Have a warm shower/bath.
  • Meditate
  • Read
  • Knit
  • Write (not type but physically write) the next day’s to do list
  • Plan more blog posts. I love trying to think of post ideas when I’m trying to sleep.
  • Play a board game or a game of cards.
  • Write lists of whatever – coming up to Christmas I list what I’m buying for each person or my plans on how to decorate.
  • Go for a walk
  • Other light exercise
  • Do some creative writing of any kind
  • Draw or colour in – adult colouring books are so much fun!
  • Do a puzzle! Remember the night I was so bored I made my own sudoku?
  • Bake!

Can you think of any other things to do without involving screens? Let me know!
Ktkinnes xx

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50 Questions to Free your mind

So, yesterday on my long train journey back from Edinburgh, I was browsing through blog posts to keep myself occupied. This has just reminded me I need to put music on my new phone before I travel again… I came across Morgan’s (from The Rose Quartz) blog post 50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind, an honestly answered list of 50 questions to get you thinking. As I read Morgan’s answers, I found myself mentally answering them too and so I decided to answer them here for you all to read! It took a long time, and I strongly considered posting them in batches of 10, but I decided to share them all at the one time. Feel free to read some and then return or whatever suits you! If you’ve any questions or comments, please feel free to leave them below!

 

  1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
    Does this mean how old do I feel or how old would I chose to be? And if it’s choose an age, if I’ve no concept of how old I am how am I meant to pick an age? Or is it just me that answers this question with more questions? If I could choose an age, I’d choose probably to be 12 again. However, today I feel like I could be in my thirties – tired of monotony and ready for a change. Ask me tomorrow and I could be feeling 6 or 7! I can never decide if I’m old or a child.
  2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
    Personally, I feel failing is worse than never trying. If you don’t try then it doesn’t count as failing, right? However, trying your best and yet being able to fail even after trying your best, at least you know you tried and it isn’t right for you. This is basically the way I’m feeling about my university career. Would I feel better having failed because I didn’t try? Or does knowing that I tried my best but still failed make me feel any better?
  3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
    I don’t know about you but I do so many things I don’t like because that’s what’s expected of me. Whether it’s family or friends, there’s a lot of pressure to do certain things certain ways and therefore we have very little time left to do the things we actually like doing. Unfortunately, to survive in this world, we need money and to get money we need to work, not necessarily working in something we enjoy.
  4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
    I’ll probably have said more than I’ve done – I never shut up!

  5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
    Only one thing? Then I’d change the world to make everyone more accepting of differences. Once equality is a given in society, people won’t start wars over things like money or religion.

  6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
    Either blogging, spending time with friends, playing with the pets, or reading. I love all of these four things and if it was possible to do these for currency (since this blog is a hobby, not for profit) then I’d love to spend all day every day doing this.

  7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
    Currently, I’m attempting to do something I believe in – university. If this doesn’t go well, then I’m afraid I’ll have to settle and do something just to make life easier. I hate the thought of settling but there are times in life we have to suck it up and get on with life.

  8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
    There is absolutely no way I’d have gone to university. Mightn’t have even sat A-Levels! Why spend 17 years of a 40 year life in education? I’d also have tried harder to be happy during the first 21 years of my life. Apart from that, I’d just live life to the fullest.

  9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
    I’ve always had a say in the course my life has taken, but until I moved out for university, it was definitely controlled mostly by my parents. However, they let me choose my secondary school regardless of the distance I would have to travel each day, they always let me explain my reasoning behind decisions and took it into consideration when it was possible, and they tried to be supportive of the choices I made – tried being the main choice of word.

  10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
    Doing things right is how I live my life mostly. If I’m doing the right thing at the same time? Well then that’s a win-win!

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  11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticising a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
    Having been in this situation, I subtly hinted towards the fact that I was friends with said person. When these hints weren’t picked up, I suggested that we change the topic as I was uncomfortable hearing them talk about a friend of mine in such a way. I pointed out to them that they probably wouldn’t be comfortable if said person heard their thoughts and opinions, and if the conversation were to continue then I would feel it necessary to inform my friend as to these peoples’ opinions.

  12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
    Live your life for you, no one else. I only realised this important piece of information in the last few months and, trust me, life gets so much easier when you allow yourself to live only for you.

  13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
    Without a doubt. Unless I’m being investigated by the police for allegedly breaking the law to save a loved one – in that case the answer is no, I would never break the law. I’m a perfect, law abiding citizen…

  14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
    I don’t really understand this question so apologies but I’m going to ignore this one.
  1. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
    Cutting onions. I’m a strange person and apparently slice onions the wrong way. Is there really a right way though? It all ends up the same way.

  2. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
    See above re ‘I’m a strange person’. Sometimes simple things can make me happy, such as seeing a dog out walking or a baby smiling away in a pram. Days when simple things make me happy are great days.

  3. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
    Anyone who knows me knows that one thing I really really want to do is have children. What’s holding me back? I’m a single, financially insecure, 20 year old who is in no way ready for that responsibility just yet. Maybe some day.

  4. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
    I suppose you could say that I need to let go of the hurt caused to me by the girls I used to call my friends, however I feel like the pain they caused gave me the inspiration to find people who actually like me for me and treat me with the same loyalty and respect I show them. So while I’m not letting it go, if I bumped into any of them on the street I would thank them for teaching me some important life lessons.

  5. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
    Hands down, no questions asked. It’s warm, sunny, and there are people there I class as family. Also, you can sit on a beach at 4 in the morning in a dress and not feel at all cold while looking up at the multitude of stars overhead.

  6. Do you push the lift button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the lift faster?
    It’ll come when it comes. If you’re in that much of a hurry, take the stairs.
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  7. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
    Well since I worry a lot anyway, I’d pick being a worried genius. Plus, who’s to say you can’t be joyful whilst being a worried genius?

 

  1. Why are you, you?
    Partly because this is the way I was brought up to be, partly because this is the way I want to be. I’m not going to continue to blame my faults on other people, but I can say that certain faults weren’t helped by certain people. I’m my own person and no one can change that.

  2. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
    I would like to hope so. If you know anyone who thinks differently, send them my way so I can learn how to be a better friend!

  3. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
    I think it would be worse to lose touch with a good friend who lives right near you. I had one friend in secondary school who made an effort to stay in touch with me, but only when I made an effort to stay in touch with her. She used to live really close to me but now with me practically living in Scotland it made it easier for us to drift apart. Yeah, it hurts, but that’s life. If we were meant to still be friends then we would be. Is that harsh?

  4. What are you most grateful for?
    The people I’ve met here in Glasgow and the friendships I’ve developed. There are 4 people I owe a lot to and they (hopefully) know who they are.

  5. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
    There are some memories I would love to forget. But then, there are some that I’ll hold with me forever. If I kept all my old memories and was never able to make any new ones, I think I’d be happy.

  6. Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
    The science student in me says no. A theory is only true as long as you can’t find the exception that disproves it. Don’t accept anything at face value. Take what you’re told or shown and question it in your own way, make up your own mind about what is or isn’t the truth.

  7. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
    My greatest fear is for something to happen to someone or for me to never get the chance to say goodbye to those people who are important to me. My dad’s aunt, my Papa, my granda, my dad’s uncle, a family friend, they all died without me getting to say goodbye or tell them how much I loved them. It hurt the most with dad’s uncle as I had the opportunity to go see him in hospital the day before he died but instead I chose to go into work and he died during the night before I could see him. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself for that.

  8. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
    Unfortunately, yes. But only because it helped shape me into the person I am today. Without that night, I wouldn’t have had the courage to move away from home and meet completely different people. And I certainly wouldn’t have started a blog where I came to share things I should’ve been sharing with my friends.

  9. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
    This is a really tough one as a lot of my childhood memories are all rolled into one. Basically, any of the memories from when I lived in Forfar, Scotland. I was young, naïve, and had no worries – of course I was happiest at that stage.

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    Rachel and Me (year unknown)

  10. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
    Sunday July 31st. It may sound pathetic to you big-time bloggers but I got 59 views on my blog, for simply sharing what was going through my head. I was inspired to continue, impassioned to write as much as I can and share everything I feel is worth sharing. 59 views might not seem like that many, but I felt alive and like someone actually cared about what I had to say.

  11. If not now, then when?
    I’m definitely more of a night-time person than a daytime person.

  12. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
    The illusion that I could achieve it if I tried to. If it hasn’t happened yet, there’s still the possibility that it might and that’s a lot easier to deal with than the possibility of trying to achieve it and failing miserably.

  13. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
    A couple of times. One person from back home had the ability to have that sort of a day with me. Someone I met in Ibiza had that effect (he couldn’t really speak much English and my Spanish is pathetic). A few people here in Glasgow. If you’re feeling down, just spend a day with them or in their company and you’re sure to feel amazing even after just 10 minutes of being with them without conversation.

  14. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
    There’s a fine line between love and hate. Sometimes the love of your religion can cause you to hate the possibility of other religions or ideas. If your religion teaches love, this love isn’t only meant to extend to people of the same religion as you. I was raised in a protestant family, hearing about The Troubles in Northern Ireland and the fact that Christians were fighting Christians over small, insignificant things. I was taught that it doesn’t matter what someone’s religion is, the religion my parents and sister believe in teaches to love everyone equally, even if you feel they don’t deserve your love.

  15. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
    No

  16. If you just won a million pounds, would you quit your job?
    That involves getting a job first to be able to quit it, right? I think I would use the money to help me set up a business/company to help others and then take a back seat, almost like a silent partner in the business. That way I’d have the best of both worlds. Queue for a song anyone?

  17. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy?
    More work that I enjoy. If it’s something I love, I’d happily dedicate all my time and resources to that job.

  18. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
    But I’m trying to change that. Take each day as a new day and treat it as such, who knows where you’ll end up.

  19. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
    I’m not sure to be honest, I rarely act on ideas. I think it’s most likely to be the night I decided to start my blog. Over 2 years ago. Wow, I don’t really do ‘follow your heart’ stuff do I?
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  20. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
    Referring back to my biggest fear being not getting to say goodbye to people I care about, this would honestly kill me. Do I gather as many of my friends and family in one place to say goodbyes all around? Or do I pick the ones who are most important to me? Can I die in this situation too? That wouldn’t be as bad I think…

  21. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
    Life’s too short and why would you ever want to be famous? And since beauty is in the eye of the beholder, being attractive is subjective.

  22. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
    I’m currently alive. I’m breathing, eating, coping. Truly living is enjoying life to the max. Doing what makes you happy, regardless of what tomorrow may bring. I think most of us are alive rather than living, which in itself is sad. We work in jobs we hate to earn pitiful amounts of money to buy things we neither need or want to impress people we don’t even particularly like. I want to live, not be alive.

  23. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
    Whenever you feel strongly about it. The minute you start considering whether it’s worth the risk, your mind is made up that you want to do it. Don’t let your fear control you.

  24. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
    Because we’re taught that mistakes are wrong and embarrassing. You thought that man you randomly hugged was your dad? Everyone laughs at how silly you were. If you weren’t embarrassed enough at your lack of awareness, you’re suddenly the punchline to a joke. We hate it happening to ourselves and so enjoy when it’s someone else who’s made the mistake. But mistakes are okay, as the question says – we learn from them. Coming to university might have been a mistake for me, however if I hadn’t moved away and tried it then I would never have learnt all the lessons the last 2 years have taught me. Embrace your mistakes and don’t let anyone put you down for making them. At least they were your mistakes and not the mistakes of others that you’re learning second hand!

  25. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
    I think I would’ve come out to my friends and family a lot sooner if nobody was going to judge me. However, when you live in Northern Ireland, which is essentially like travelling back in time by at least 100 years, you learn quickly that if you’re ‘different’ people won’t accept you.

  26. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
    I always notice the sound of my own breathing. I’m a heavy breather. The last time I was properly aware of it though was our last night in Ibiza when I was sharing the bed with 2 other people and trying to pretend to be asleep.


  1. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
    I love blogging and being with friends. Hopefully my new dedication to the blog is proof enough of this, and my willingness to drop everything for my friends should be testament enough to this.

  2. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
    I’d like to think that I’d remember the time I accidentally ended up at the Edinburgh Fringe Festival! If not, I always have my blog to look back at, or TImehop will be there to remind me of how embarrassing I am.

  3. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
    As of Monday morning, I made the decision that my decisions are going to be the ones that matter. I’ll accept people’s thoughts or suggestions but I want to start deciding things by myself for myself.

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Ktkinnes xx

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End of the week, end of the month!

Wow okay so I’ve actually got both of these to write up today, please be patient while I try and remember the last month! Or will I start with the week’s review? Yeah, let’s do that first and then come back later for a round up of the month. Here goes!
Monday, I was an abandoned child while Mum, Dad and Rachel all went to the beach. I lay by the pool and read to my hearts content, and yes I still have that review to write. I’ll get on that as soon as I’ve finished these two posts, I promise. When they came back, we had our usual dip in the pool followed by a pre-shower drink so that we could go get ready for the night ahead. As was our usual routine, we got changed in our respective rooms and then Rachel and I moved through to Mum and Dad to chat while they finished getting ready. As we started down for dinner, Rachel somehow managed to kick the door frame and ended up with a bleeding toe. Now, while this doesn’t sound funny here it was hilarious at the time. To be honest, her toe is still sore so maybe it isn’t funny… But it definitely was at the time. After dinner that night, we met José in Es Canar for a few drinks with Mum and Dad. It was a good night and we got back to the hotel around 2:30am.
Tuesday was more of the same, just lying by the pool and getting some sun while reading and revising. I accidentally fell asleep for an hour and woke up completely sunburnt on the back of my legs to the point that it hurt to walk. That night we said goodbye to 2 of our friends who had been going to the hotel for 10 years but they have decided that this year wil have been their last. There were quite a few tears, and the night ended reasonably early given the circumstances.
Wednesday marked our last full day. We said our goodbyes to some of the staff in the afternoon, making them promise to come visit us if they’re ever in the UK. That night there was a party of some kind in the hotel and everyone was invited however we felt extremely underdressed, even in some of our best clothes. There were people from Chanel there… Rachel and I were then to go on and meet José in Es Canar again for a few drinks and so we said farewell to yet more staff – it was painful, especially knowing they mightn’t be there the next time we go if and when we next go. After a few drinks in one bar, we went on the dodgems (I’ve a serious bruise on my knee to prove it) before having a few drinks in another bar and then on to a club after. As per usual, we ended the night on the beach before getting a taxi back to the hotel.
Thursday had us doing our last minute packing and soaking up the sun. It was also the worst day for goodbyes as we were properly saying goodbye to José and I honestly didn’t want to. I could have a platonic marriage to a 39 year old and live in Ibiza, right? We got on the bus and went to the airport and finally got home around 10pm on Thursday night. 
Friday brought about a mad scramble to unpack and then repack for me. I got a new phone in the middle of it all, and then Granny H came up to the house for a Chinese takeaway and a catch up. It was a quiet enough day considering we were adapting to the delightful summer weather we get here in the UK.
Saturday (yesterday) was then a case of up early to finish packing and get across to the hairdressers. I was furious when I came out though. The prices have gone up to £34 for a cut and blow dry, my hair looked nothing like what I’d asked for, and when I voiced that concern the response was “well I did what you asked and there isn’t anything else I can do”. My hair looked like it hadn’t seen shampoo in a month it was that limp!!! So I came home and restyled it myself to look semi reasonable. We then went and visited Granny before taking me to the airport. I then flew back to Glasgow, arrived into the flat, and collapsed into bed. It had been a busy couple of days!
So today I’m going to revise and write a few more blog posts. Have a great Sunday!
Ktkinnes xx

Posted in holiday, Lifestyle

Taking off!

We’re finally in the air! After an half hour delay (not long, I know, but annoying as no information given) we finally took off. You probably won’t get reading this until tonight but I felt the need to blog and update you, even if you aren’t interested.

This morning, I woke up at 5:30am. No need to get up until after 9am… Those were the longest 3 hours of my life. Eventually, I jumped through the shower and got through the whole legs, arm pits and hair washing routine. With nails painted, all I had left to do was pack my nail polish and final few toiletries! Eventually we were organised enough to load the car. At this point, I was banished to walk Baron as he gets very anxious when we leave for anywhere and so we’ve been hiding the suitcases from him for the last week.

Quick walk around the block, I actually got to go hunting for Pokemon! Have you downloaded Pokemon Go? It’s so addictive! We then all bundled into the car and drove to the airport. Security and bag drop were speedy enough but just the usual nerves of “have I any liquids in my hand luggage that I forgot about?” Thankfully the answer was no and we went to have lunch in The Lagan Bar. Now I know it was lunch time and the place was packed, especially with Belfast International Airport having so few good places, but when we went to order we were told they’d run out of all 3 platters, all fish except tuna mayo, all sausages and several other items. So we ended up having a cold baked potato with a spoonful of not the nicest chilli in the world. However, we didn’t care – we’re going on our holidays!

Eventually we were called to the gate but at the last second they changed us to a different gate. Then we were boarded quickly but sat for over half an hour with no explanation as to why we weren’t moving. I’m now sitting with a bottle of prosecco, listening to Taylor Swift and ready to have a nap! I’ll speak to you all soon!

Ktkinnes xx

Posted in Lifestyle, TV, Wishful Wednesday

Wishful Wednesday and other such news.

Okay before I begin tonight, I just want to apologise for my complete lack of posting over the past 2 weeks. Again, there’s been no real reason for it except I’m revising for resits and too lazy to write the posts earlier. Although I suppose when I first started out blogging I never intended to blog every day unless there was something worth saying.


So once again, sorry! Especially if you’ve been looking for me recently. I’ve recently started watching Scandal, especially when revising. Mary kept telling me to watch it, especially since I love Greys Anatomy and How To Get Away With Murder. How right she was! Kerry Washington stars as Olivia Pope, a so-called lawyer who acts as a “fixer” for the rich and famous (sometimes infamous) of Washington D.C. It’s a great show and I can’t honestly think of a show I’d rather be watching. 

If I’m being honest, my love for all things presidential at the minute definitely adds to the reasons I’m enjoying Scandal. However, I love seeing actors and actresses from other shows that I’ve watched appearing in different roles. An example of this would be Jeff Perry. He’s a fantastic actor. I enjoyed watching him act Thatcher Grey in Grey’s Anatomy, but now I adore him as Cyrus Bean in Scandal. I don’t want to give anything away really but Cyrus and his husband are so cute together and Jeff’s acting moved me to tears today at a certain point in season 3 – no spoilers from anyone who’s seen it!
Now that I’ve covered my TV addict’s part of the post, I thought I’d move onto Wishful Wednesday. Unless you’d rather I stopped that? Again, I’m not really sure if you’re enjoying it so please please please send me some feedback! 
It’s been a long week. I’ve started revising morning, afternoon and night, with very little time for sleep or anything else for that matter. So for today’s Wishful Wednesday, I choose to pass these exams and graduate next summer. For obvious reasons (I hope) I want to pass these exams. After the exams, I will progress onto 3rd year. My desire to be a teacher is still going strong. Will I have to change the theme of my blog if/when that happens? Who knows. We’ll cross that bridge when it comes to it.
The past 10 days or so, as I’ve said, have mainly been spent revising. After a few days at the library, I switched to revising at home. Rachel finished her exams and to celebrate we had an Indian takeaway and watched The Lady In The Van. Now my rating of this isn’t very high, it was good but I’m not quite sure if it was good enough to deserve all the awards and praise it received. Definitely would rather have been watching Scandal. Rachel then went camping with Cameron for a few days in the rain, while the rest of us here in Lisburn went out for dinner which resulted in a rather interesting Sunday morning. Have I told you my uncle is living with us at the minute? I can’t really go into why or how at the minute so if I remember I’ll come back to it another time. 


Finally, it’s 17 days, 17 hours and 50 odd minutes until we set off for Ibiza! I’ve never been so excited to go on holiday. Brief throwback to this day last year when I wrote Packing. Can you believe my blog is 2 years old? However, please ignore the adds at the top of the picture. It would be a miracle if I was pregnant! 

I can’t believe it isn’t even 10 o’clock yet, I’m exhausted! Except before I go to sleep I still have some more revision to do. Blogging is a nice change. If I’m lucky, I’ll be going to sleep around 12:30am and get up again at 7ish to start over again. Why do I do this to myself? I swear to whatever anyone believes in, I will work even harder next year. I need to. 
So goodnight! Wish me luck with Nuclear and Particle Physics… Maybe it’ll send me to sleep 😂
Happy Hump Day!
Ktkinnes xx

Posted in Lifestyle

Too much to do

Success in life is a matter not so much of talent or opportunity as of concentration and perseverance. – C. W. Wendte          

Today I woke up feeling like I could lie in bed forever, but here’s why I can’t. 

  • I’ve still to unpack from Paris. I am the world’s laziest traveller. Most of the time, everything ends up back in the laundry basket so I can have a few more days of doing nothing. But this time I’ve to unpack so I can repack to return to Northern Ireland. Great…
  • I need to wash my hair. It hasn’t been washed since Wednesday night and looks a state right now, so I’ve tied it up in the hope I can leave it until tomorrow.
  • My Paris blog post needs to be written. Except I’m waiting until my external hard drive arrives so I can save all my photos to it before writing the post. 
  • I need to start packing for going home. Normally packing takes me 3 weeks, now I’ve to condense it to 2 days!
  • Dinner needs cooked at some stage…
  • My bedroom is a mess and the kitchen needs sorted
  • I’ve too much food and no idea if it’ll freeze or not.
  • Shopping needs done since I’ve got parts of meals but not actual meals

And probably so much more that I can’t think of right now! The first step will be getting out of bed. Wish me luck!
Ktkinnes xx

Posted in Lifestyle

Can’t sleep won’t sleep

Once again, I find myself blogging during the early hours of the morning. Ah well, it’s not like I’ve got anything to get up for tomorrow!

I was lying here when it dawned on me that it’s been a long time since I opened up to you all about me and so I decided to share a few facts about me that you may or may not know. So buckle up and settle back, because here are a few facts about boring little me!

  1. For as long as I can remember, I’ve wanted to be a teacher. Some of you may now be wondering why on earth I’m doing a Physics degree if I would rather be in teaching and the simple answer is I messed up. Unknowingly, I dropped first English language and English literature after my GCSEs (exams sat at the age of 15-16). I continued to AS levels with Chemistry, History, Maths and Physics but had to drop History after a year since I failed it due to bad teaching and a lack of interest in the topics on my part. And so I wasn’t doing an essay subject so couldn’t apply for a degree in education straight away. Not long now! 
  2. I have an annoying habit of becoming obsessed with things very quickly. Whether it’s a tv show or a book, I will fall under its spell and take forever to move on. See today’s post on Grey’s Anatomy for example.
  3. My all time favourite animal would be either a turtle or a penguin. This is why it was beyond anything I could imagine when I finally got to see the penguin parade at Edinburgh Zoo! 
  4. I played with Bratz dolls until I was 13. I used to claim it was because my sister made me, but really I just enjoyed creating a world to which I could escape the restrictions and problems of living at home with my parents. I would’ve continued for longer if Rachel hadn’t lost her temper with me eventually and told me to grow up…
  5. I miss my disfunctional  family. We mightn’t get along, and there may be a lot wrong with us in general, but I do miss them. Until I’ve been home 48 hours. Then I want to run again.
  6. My flatmates mean more to me than I let on to them. They’re my real family, the ones I choose to spend time with. We go through phases of annoying the hell out of each other but then who doesn’t? These 3 are life savers, don’t know where I’d be without them.
  7. I’m still annoyed at a friend of mine from when I was 7 for borrowing my VHS of The Emperor’s New Groove and losing it. She will never be fully forgiven. I feel bad admitting this to be honest.
  8. My favourite book is one from my childhood – Mermaid Magic by Gwyneth Rees. I know it’s a kids book but I would read this every day if I could. Mum and Dad donated it to the charity shop without me knowing a few years back. If it wasn’t for the fact it is now bringing some other child happiness, I would resent them more for it. The blurb is: Down in the watery blue depths of the ocean is Tingle Reef – home to young mermaid Rani and a whole host of fishy friends! It’s an underwater world of magic and mystery – where Rani’s adventures are about to begin… Rani has always known that she’s different from the rest of her family. Her flowing red hair and glowing amber eyes stand out from the other mermaids, who have golden hair and eyes like the sea. But Rani’s about to find out that she’s more different than she realised – she’s got magic powers!
  9. I own over 100 soft toys, not including the ones I have here in Glasgow. Plus I plan on buying at least one in Disneyland Paris next week.
  10. Finally, this blog has kept me sane, as have you. By following me and reading my posts, you have given me courage and self esteem that I never had growing up with my parents and friends. You are the reason I have the courage to speak my mind so freely now. Thank you.

Ktkinnes xx

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    Late night ponderings


    Before I start, I just wanted to direct you towards my Twitter account (@kvburton657) where I am a lot more active at the minute, just in case any of you are missing me and wanting more of my ramblings! But yes, on with the post.

    Once again I’m still awake in the early hours of the morning even though I promised myself an early night. Does it ever happen with you? Dinner was over before 8, I’d planned a movie night with friends and hoped to be in bed and asleep by midnight. Instead it was 12:30am when our friend left and I’m still awake. So here I am!
    How do you get to sleep on those nights when it just seems impossible? Reading used to be my cure, however recently it hasn’t helped at all. Mary likes to fall asleep watching a film, but to me that seems impractical – you end up missing the film! Jason uses music, something I occasionally do but a lot of the time it makes things worse. I know the golden rule is to eat earlier and stay off my phone or away from screens but I’m a 20 year old student – these aren’t really options.

    Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
    Ktkinnes xx

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    What makes you an “adult”?


    This thought crossed my head while I was reading The Signs Of Having Your Sh*t Together by Lexilife95 earlier tonight. Brilliant list and excellent blogger, give her a read and see for yourselves! But she got me thinking, at what point do I have to accept that I’m slowly yet surely entering adulthood?


    Student life is that in between stage where you’re independent (well you’re meant to be anyway) but not a fully fledged adult with horrible things like council tax and everything else that comes with leaving university. I mean yes, I pay rent, I pay bills, I’m responsible for my own actions, and I don’t rely on my parents for anything. Except my phone bill. Only reason for that is they can claim they only pay it so I’ll keep in touch with them. 

    Take today for example. I woke up at 10:30am and had a sudden panic that I’d wasted a morning of revision time. Instead of breakfast, I started straight into 90 minutes of physics ahead of next Tuesday’s exam – terrified! I know so little for it! Following that was lunch, a pre-made  lunch of soup I cooked last week and defrosted overnight. Then I forced myself back into revision mode. Another break at 3:30pm for coffee and a chat with my flatmates, before another half hour’s revision and then I gave up. I watched The West Wing, I phoned home about my EHIC card (European Health Insurance Card – another reason the UK should stay in the EU), and then eventually cooked a chicken pasta bake. After dinner, Mary and I chatted for a while and then I scrubbed the bathroom from top to bottom simply for the sake of it.

    So until half an hour ago, I felt quite responsible and mature. Then I realised, if I was really an adult I would be at work and having to get up earlier. I’d have more responsibilities to take care of before I could sit here and write this blog. And I’d certainly be trying to get to sleep before midnight! Another thing I rarely do.
    I suppose everything is relative. Having done 4 hours of revision today, I am considering doing another hour before bed. Or I could tidy my room. Another alternative would be to read and relax. Which of these is best? Who knows!
    The real question I want to ask though is what makes someone an adult? Is it their age? The way they act? Their responsibilities?

    If it’s age then why are there different ages for different things by law? Legally in the UK you can have sex at 16 or get married with parental permission. However you must be 18 or over to drink, vote, share/own “explicit images” of your partner (on the condition they too are over 18), and so much more. Yet at the age of 18, you’re still a teenager – still restricted by life’s obstacles. The majority of 18 year olds go to university, and so aren’t working or as responsible as someone who does work full time. So is it when they graduate? Because again this differs according to course and university.

    Is it the way someone acts? I’ve always been told, from a young age, that I act older than I am. Not always a bad thing in my opinion. However this didn’t make me an adult. And a childish adult is still an adult.

    As I sit here writing this post, it has occurred to me that “adulthood”, whilst influenced by someone’s age, mannerisms, and actions, is a state of life that we choose to enter at our own pace rather than at a set stage in life. 
    Sorry for the slightly more sobering post tonight, but now I shall have to go do a bit more revision! Thanks again for reading!
    Ktkinnes xx

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    Eugh. Sunday.

    I love Sunday’s. The relaxation, the preparation for the week ahead, and the ever present desire to hide in bed for an eternity.

      
    After a busy week of what felt like doing nothing, I’m exhausted. And I’ve somehow developed a cold. Monday was hectic, writing a presentation due in on Tuesday, and accompanied by a trip to the park. Tuesday then saw a day of shopping, spending money unnecessarily but it was fun. Wednesday came with a presentation in physics that I think went well, and then a fab night out with my new friends at lgbtq+. Thursday should’ve been a day of recovery except it was St. Patrick’s Day and so the drinking continued – the day ending with me attending my first ever ceilidh. Friday saw me tidying and beginning to get my life organised again before watching Freedom Writers, a fantastic film. My review can be found titled “Freedom Writers”. Saturday was super Saturday, 3 rugby matches and once again alcohol was consumed. With the cold I wasn’t drinking much and so it was fun to watch Nuala and Charlie get incredibly drunk.
    I’m now currently in bed, dosed up with painkillers and cold and flu medicine, watching Criminal Minds and considering making a revision timetable. 37 days until the first exam!

      

    Tonight’s plan is a quiet night in. Maybe a film with Mary. I’m heading home for a few weeks as of Tuesday so tomorrow will probably be spent packing along with meeting up with one of said lgbtq+ friends for coffee. Hopefully this week will be less hectic with a lot more sleep involved! Coughing stops me from sleeping…
    Anyway, I’m going to go and pay attention to the tv. Remember, make the most of what’s left of your Sunday night freedom!
      

    Ktkinnes xxx