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Procrastinating Again

Okay so I started out pretty badly this morning. I completely overslept after being awake talking to Jordanne until well after 3am and so had 30 minutes to get ready for uni today only to end up getting to my tutorial and doing very little as I had no questions to ask about the work that had been set.

 

So of course, me being me, I went onto Twitter and started just scrolling the way we so-called millennials are stereotyped to do. I came across a post (once again I do apologise because I can’t remember who wrote it or what it was even called) all about how 2016 wasn’t going the way they wanted it to so they decided to make a change. This hit home a little and got me thinking. Why do we always set a time to change from? Surely if we want to change, we should just jump in there – 2 feet at the same time.

 

Every year, around this time, we suddenly realise that in just over a month we’ll all be talking New Year’s Resolutions and the likes, and I always set them. I even manage to last maybe a month before I give up! But why should I wait until January 1st to make the changes I feel are necessary? And why do I assume I need to make changes?

 

Over the past 48 hours, I’ve done a lot of thinking about different things, and I got so wound up about some of it when talking to Jordanne last night, and this morning I found myself asking why I let these things build up for so long. I spent the first 8 months of 2016 being a bit of a mess. I decided I wanted to come back to uni and put the effort in and I’m doing that. The majority of the time anyway, yes I’m blogging now instead of studying but I can manage my time the way I want to.

 

I want to make the effort to be consciously happier. But why should I sit and wait for happiness to find me? It’s my responsibility to go out there, grab life in both hands, and make myself enjoy life. I don’t want to sit at the age of 50 and question where my life has gone and why I didn’t do this thing or another thing. This year, I want to travel more and see more places. Even just places in Northern Ireland and Scotland! It’s why going to Edinburgh for the day, or Aberdeen, or even the fact I’m going to Dundee this weekend makes me so excited! This weekend I have Dundee. Next weekend is a friend’s birthday dinner and I get to travel to a different part of Glasgow. Weekend after that, I’ve decided to take a spontaneous trip home – I miss the animals and haven’t seen my parents in ages. Normally that wouldn’t bother me but I just want to go home to a house that’s bigger than the flat for a few days. Anyway, I got distracted there. So I’m home for a while. The weekend after that is our flat Christmas dinner and I can’t wait to cook that and have fun with Mary, Nuala and Jason. The weekend after that? LONDON!!! I cannot wait to see Jordanne and the others and get to spend time with them, all while exploring a new place! The weekend after that, I will be home for my mum’s birthday (so more travelling), the weekend after that is Christmas. After that comes New Year, which I’m hoping to spend in Glasgow or Edinburgh. Weekend after that? Well, that’s the weekend before classes start again and knowing us we’ll have a welcome back party for our friends from halls. So that’s 9 weekends in a row I have at least one thing planned!

 

This has been a very rambley post, and for that I apologise. But I just wanted to update you all on what’s been going through my head recently. It can get a bit messy in there, and I never know how I get from one topic to another. So in conclusion, I’m so excited to be going home for a weekend soon, even if it’s purely to see my furbabies!

 

Hope you’re all well!

 

Ktkinnes xxx

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Sunday Summary

It’s back! Have you missed it? I can’t decide if I did or not. However, it’s a Sunday morning and here we are, ready to take a look back at the last 7 days. How have you been? Haven’t asked you in a while, how rude of me. I’m actually looking forward to sharing the last few days with you so without further adieu, here’s Sunday’s Summary!

 

Sunday  was a little bit of a lazy day. Well, not lazy as I had so much university work to do… But I stayed in my pyjamas all day and got to be a bit of a slob. I finished up around 7ish and an old friend from first year showed up unexpectedly while Mary was cooking dinner for the two of us, so it was quite nice to have a bit of a chat. Actually, I’ve just remembered I want to ask Mary for her recipe for that chicken… Knew this was helpful!

On Monday, I had my two lectures and my first lab session of the year! Except it wasn’t really a lab. Instead, we discussed estimating things and deriving equations and used a cool app called Kahoot to answer multiple choice questions on the board. We then had to partner up and sign up to our experiments and our literature reports for later in the year. This was the nervous part for me – I know no one in my labs and was so worried about having to find a partner and talk to someone completely new. I hovered by the sign up sheets until a good three quarters of the room had left before approaching 4 girls and a guy standing in a group – there was bound to be someone without a partner! Thankfully, the guy (Will) told me he didn’t have a partner and so now we’re together for the experiments! We’re starting with probably not the best experiment but then at least I’ve done it all before! Next week however is Matlab so please wish me luck with it. It’s a horrible coding course we have to take… Not looking forward to that.

Tuesday came and once again I made it to my lectures, and came home to an empty flat. I phoned home on Tuesday for a bit of a chat, and had a chat with my aunt in Dundee too, and so I passed the time that way. Again, I mainly spent the day writing notes up and making sure I understood what was going on. Of course, I remembered to take part in the GRLPOWR chat on Twitter and it basically ended up being a Christmas chat – at least the bits I saw! Oh, that’s another thing. I woke up with fresher’s flu on Monday and so by Tuesday honestly thought I was dying. Yes, I’m quite a bad sufferer of man-flu. A simple cold was killing me. But I attempted an early night on Tuesday as a result.

Ah Wednesday… The highlight of my week. If you have me on snapchat, then you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about and I’d like to apologise for my rambling so much about going to bed instead of actually getting up and going to bed. But we’ll get to that point in a minute. I woke up on Wednesday feeling slightly better and was happy to go to class. I came back, did some work, and then made a chilli. Except there were 5 portions of chilli… I don’t know if I’ve just reduced my portion sizes or what as I purposefully only bought enough meat to make 2 portions so I’m not sure how that developed into 5? Anyway. I then got ready to go to LGBTQ+ which was having it’s official Launch Night event to raise money for the year. Drinks were £1 for a single and £2 for doubles, beers and ciders. There were also raffle tickets on sale so naturally I spent £10 on tickets and didn’t win anything. Some of my old friends from last year showed up and it was a great night, resulting in me going to Polo – the LGBTQ+ club in Glasgow City Centre. Suffice to say I spent a small fortune on drinks overall, made it home just after 3am, and was still snapchat vlogging at 4am… Sorry! No wonder I was so hungover on Thursday…

Thursday morning was painful. I woke up and spent the first hour trying not to throw up, before throwing on whatever clothes I could find and going to my lectures. Warm lecture theatres, lots of people, and being hungover was not a fantastic combination but I survived! Came home, went to have a bit of a nap but couldn’t due to noise, and so just got on with some work. Mary and I got Chinese as she had been out with the football girls and was feeling equally as rough as me. We then curled up on the sofa to watch The Apprentice. Anyone else delighted that it’s back? There were some fabulous comments and one-liners! Unfortunately I missed the chat for GRLPOWR but I think it was a good one! I then went to bed and wrote up a few blog posts while discussing the GRLPOWR Christmas plans. Yes it’s early but the fact that it’s already the 9th of October is a sign that time is going to fly!

Friday was a bit of a mixed day. I woke up thinking ‘Wow, Mary’s up early, I don’t normally see her before lectures…’. I rolled over and looked at my phone – 11:08am. My first lecture of the day had started 3 minutes earlier and there I was still in bed. There went my ‘attend every lecture’ goal! I did, however, manage to shower, dry my hair, have breakfast, and look semi decent all in the 40 minutes I had before my next lecture – not too bad in my opinion! On my way home, an old friend bumped into me and followed me home… Not that I don’t like him but just he ditched us for over a year because he had a girlfriend and now that they’ve broken up he’s come crawling back. I wouldn’t care but he expected me to just continue as if no time had passed. The afternoon was spent talking on the phone to Mum, and writing my post for Tuesday next week. Trust me when I say I was writing it from 4:30 until well after 9, and I didn’t even stop for dinner. So at 10pm I curled up in bed with doritos, netflix, and the GRLPOWR group chat to have a relaxed night.

Finally, Saturday was spent tidying my room, organising shopping lists and actually doing the shopping. I caught up on some uni work, spoke to one of my grannies, and cooked dinner for Jason, Mary and myself. Then Saturday night was once again spent blogging and chatting to friends! Haha, what happened to my social life?

 

So that’s you up to date! What did you get up to this week? Any fun stories to share?

 

Ktkinnes xx

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Day 19 – Hobby

What is your hobby and why do you enjoy it?

This! This blog is my hobby. I love writing it and spilling my words to you all. I love the twitter chats and interactions that come along with blogging. There’s a sense of community amongst the majority of the bloggers I have had the pleasure to chat with online.

It’s brilliant having a place I can come to share my thoughts and opinions on the day, knowing that there are people out there who are going to read my posts and comment on them!

Aside from this, I love reading, watching TV, and cooking! Anything creative is brilliant as it’s a complete change from my subjects at university.

Ktkinnes xx

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Day 15 – The Trip

Haha okay so this one is really easy to pick. What is my most memorable trip and why? Obviously Ibiza!

 

The summer between finishing school and starting university, I went to Ibiza with my parents and my sister. We stayed in an adult’s only hotel and it was the first holiday in 8 or 9 years that we didn’t have Mum’s mum with us. Rachel was the youngest guest there and so we got a lot more attention than other guests – although I think her looks might’ve had something to do with that. It was the first holiday we went on that I actually felt 100% comfortable and like I could’ve stayed longer than our two weeks.

 

As a result, we went again the next two years! However, they have seriously upped the prices due to a recent refurbishment – who pays over £2000 per person for two weeks half board? I can cruise for less than that. It upsets me that I won’t be able to go back next summer, we’ve made some real friends in the staff there, never mind some of the other guests. If you have the money, I would seriously recommend Sol Beach House Ibiza, however I won’t be back for quite some time now due to the sudden increase in price.

 

Ktkinnes xx

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Day 14 – My Dreams

Why are my dreams important and what are they? Well… For as long as I can remember, I’ve dreamt of being a mum and being a teacher. I’m currently working on getting into teaching – I’m studying physics at university in the hope of doing a PGCE or a PDGE as it’s known here in Scotland. I’m emailing schools, asking to do work shadowing for the month of June after my exams have all ended, as the more experience I have the more likely I am to be accepted for a course.

 

Being a mum may be slightly more difficult/complicated but I’ll figure it out somehow.

 

One of the longest running dreams of mine was finally reached in May this year. For as long as I can remember, I’ve dreamed of going to Disneyland – didn’t matter to me whether it was Paris or in the USA. At the age of 20, I finally got to go and actually I’m so happy I was older when I first went. I had the energy to keep going. I watched the parades and was tall enough that it didn’t matter if the adults with their children blocked my view. I could go on all the rides I wanted to, and could sit and wait for my friends if they were on a ride I didn’t want to go on. No one could tell me not to buy too many soft toys, and when I watched the night time show, I felt the shivers down my spine. It was an incredible experience and one which will be with me for many years to come.

 

 

Ktkinnes xx

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Day 13 – The Gift

Now this one is difficult to write. I recently had my 21st birthday and received so many incredibly thoughtful and meaningful presents from friends and family! For this post, I’ve to talk about a gift that I cherish and why – but it’s so hard to pick just one!

 

Not going to lie, my friends bought me an amazing gift this year – one I will have forever. They got me a personalised calendar with pictures of us and other friends in it, as well as a picture of things I like. Of course, their names are on it in prime positions, but it just goes to show that they know what they mean to me. It’s going to be something I’ll always have, and I’ll definitely always remember who gave it to me!

 

Ktkinnes xxx

 

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Day 22 – Challenges

Helloooo my lovely friends! Okay so you may be forgiven for forgetting I was participating in the 30 Days of Gratitude Blogging Challenge, especially considering I basically skipped 10 days worth of them… But have no fear! I shall post a brief one for each of these throughout the day – I’m actually going to write them the minute I finish this post.

 

So, as you can see, today’s theme is Challenges with the subtitle of What is your greatest challenge in life and how do you plan to overcome it? Haha well let’s just put out there that I picked a hard one to come back in on!

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Before I could even begin to write this post, I asked myself ‘What constitutes as a challenge?’. The Cambridge Online Dictionary defines it as “(the situation of being faced with) something that needs great mental or physical effort in order to be done successfully and therefore tests a person’s ability.”  To me, personally, a challenge is something that prevents you or makes it more difficult for you to achieve the goals you set for yourself. If this is the case, then I had a lot more to think about!

 

I had to ask myself – what do I consider a challenge in my life? Blogging daily? We all know how well that’s been going – not. Going to university and getting a degree? We’re working on that one, patience young grasshopper. My relationship with my family? Ha, don’t get me started. Wow, there were a lot I could think of! However, I realised that none of these are really a proper challenge – more things that my self-doubt hinders or affects. That’s when it hit me. My greatest challenge, at this point in my life anyway, is my self confidence.

 

 

When conversing with the lovely ladies at GRLPOWR, and all the other amazing people involved in their chat on Sunday 18th September based on Confidence, there came a question – ‘How far would you go to gain confidence? (Surgery, buy things, etc)’. While replying truthfully, I stated that I constantly spend money on makeup and clothes to try and look better and more confident. I admitted that I considered either laser skin treatment for my acne scarring or laser hair removal, and I had also looked into laser eye surgery – all in the hope of becoming ‘prettier’ according to societies rules. I heavily rely on the things I buy and how I look to try and get people to like me – as someone once said to me, all I talk about is TV and I’m incredibly boring because of it. Well since then I’ve started talking a lot more about blogging too so I guess I’m just a nightmare to be around.

 

Woah, sorry, this was meant to be a post about overcoming challenges – not focusing on what the challenge is or how I feel about it! But that last paragraph was to give you a basic insight into my mind. I hate being left out of things, even if it’s nothing important. There’s always a constant worry in the back of my mind that no one likes me and they all just put up with me because I’ve attached myself to them. I know that it’s not true (hopefully) but it’s there and it’s because of my low self confidence.

 

It’s not something I can just get over. It’s not a quality I like about myself, ha the irony of having low self confidence because of problems caused by low self confidence, but it’s one I can work on. Back in August, I wrote about my promise to myself. I’ve recently started doing things because they make me happy and I want to do them. I’m getting more involved in extracurricular things at uni because, as Nuala said earlier, there are so many opportunities while at uni that disappear the minute we leave this place!

 

Planning to overcome low self confidence isn’t really effective in my opinion, simply because it takes a lot longer to change a thought or opinion than it does to change or fix a physical problem. Yes, there are ways to physically change to increase self confidence, but why should I have to change to feel better about myself? So yes, we’re working on that.

 

By the way, I don’t know if any of you have realised but I often refer to myself as ‘we’ – please ignore this, I am a me.

 

 

Thanks for reading!

Ktkinnes xxx

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22 Books to Read Before I’m 22

Hello again! I’m trying to get back to blogging and, to do so, I wanted to post something I would enjoy writing. I will try to get back to the blogging challenge, I promise I will try. But for now, here are the 22 books I hope to read before my 22nd birthday – only 354 days to go!

 

  1. Les Miserables by
  2. The Thirty-Nine Steps by Richard Hannay
  3. The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini
  4. According to Yes – Dawn French
  5. The Colour Purple
  6. The Great Gatsby
  7. Life After Life – Kate Atkinson
  8. The Danish Girl
  9. The Casual Vacancy
  10. Before I Go To Sleep
  11. The Perks of Being a Wallflower
  12. A Brief History of Time
  13. Jane Eyre
  14. The Book Thief
  15. Animal Farm
  16. Peter Pan
  17. The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas
  18. Bridge to Teribithia
  19. Angela’s Ashes
  20. Poirot’s Last Case
  21. Me Before You
  22. The Well of Loneliness

 

What would you out on your list?

 

Ktkinnes xx

 

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Day 11 – Knowledge

I’m getting there with these posts! What one has been your favourite so far, given the fact we’re a third of the way through them now? Well, today’s theme is Knowledge with the question What have you learnt and how has it changed your life?

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Most recently, I’ve learnt that my happiness is key. For as long as I can remember, I’ve focused on the happiness of those around me over my own feelings, to the point that on my birthday I was overly stressed and actually ended up crying I was that stressed out – not a great thing to do in front of friends and family! That was the turning point, and from that point on I realised that they were all there to ensure I had a good time – I was the one who was meant to be enjoying myself, not them. Well, obviously they were meant to be enjoying themselves but you know what I mean.

 

Back in November, I learnt that I am who I am and if other people can’t accept that then stuff the lot of them. If they can’t accept me for being the person I am then they don’t deserve my attempts to be the person they want me to be. Not sure that sentence even makes sense (five cups of coffee in less than two hours can do some crazy things for your motivation) but we’ll go with it.

 

It took a lot of pain and ended friendships back in school but I learnt that not everyone is going to like me. That’s fine, that’s their loss. Similar to above but for different reasons. I was a loner while at school. No one really liked me, and they didn’t have to search long for a reason not to like me. I’m weird. I have bizarre interests and I easily become obsessed with things very quickly. However, since starting uni, I learnt to love my ‘weird’ quirks. Who cares if I ramble away to myself? Why shouldn’t I talk about the things that interest me? And what harm is there in owning over 200 soft toys at the age of 21 and crying when someone suggests getting rid of just one? I am me and nothing’s going to change that. Since making my promise to me back in August, I’ve found myself more willing to forgive myself for the faults that I’ve so long used to define me. I’ve an amazing group of friends at university, I’ve met some incredible bloggers since I brought my ‘weirdness’ online, and I have absolutely zero regrets about any of it. I’ve learnt that if I want something and put the work in, I can do it. And I’m taking that ethos into this upcoming year. I will get my degree and become a teacher. I will achieve my goals. And most importantly, I will continue to be the best me there possibly is. There’s only one of me and that me is incredible. Just wish I’d learnt it sooner!

 

 

Ktkinnes xx

 

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Day 3 -My Projects or Work

Hello again everyone! It’s strange blogging on a Saturday again. How are you all today? Today’s theme for the 30 Days of Gratitude is My Projects/Work, with the subheading of What do I love about my projects/work.

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Now, unfortunately I currently am not working, nor do I really have any projects…. So I’m going to use this chance to talk about What I Love about Blogging.

 

Especially with the way my university career has been going recently, I took to blogging more frequently as it gave me an escape. I love the fact it’s somewhere I can be fully myself without worrying about what anyone thinks. I’m so grateful to all my readers and followers, as without you I honestly don’t think I would’ve continued this long!

 

Blogging has made me happier within myself, introduced me to so many new people, and brought me closer to some amazing personalities I wouldn’t have otherwise met. I know, I know, you’re probably so fed up with hearing about Girl Power from me so I won’t go into it again. But the fact that there are so many twitter chats and chances to talk to people from anywhere in the world would’ve remained hidden from me without blogging!

 

I love sitting down with a cup of coffee in hand to write another post. When the words flow from my brain, through my fingers, and onto the screen, I feel so relaxed and at peace. It’s like I can actually feel my problems ebbing away while I write to you all.

 

What do you love about your work?

 

Ktkinnes xxx