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Last minute shopping

Every year. Every year Dad manages to leave buying something until Christmas Eve and so there’s a mission task sent out to Rachel and me for the day. As if it isn’t hard enough trying to get everything else sorted, staying calm enough to attempt shopping on the one day shops should be empty is not one of my skill sets.

 

Today’s song? All I Want For Christmas Is You! Quite appropriate given the last minute shopping expedition I am already away out on. Yes, as this post goes live at 9am, I will already be in the town centre running around the shops. But before I continue, let’s all admire the penultimate song in our countdown!

 

Dad loves to try the trick of “In two days time, this will be on sale. Why don’t you sell it to me for the sale price now?” It is honestly the cringiest thing ever. So today’s blogmas is all about how to survive the shops today!

  1. Get up and out early. The sooner you get to those shops, the sooner you get to come home again. Plus, the early bird catches the worm. Want to beat the crowds and get the best parking spaces? Be there the minute the shop opens.
  2. Have a list. This is a standard of mine, but it is essential on Christmas Eve. You do not want to be roaming from shop to shop with no idea of what you’re buying. Know what you’re looking for and don’t get distracted.
  3. Set a limit. This applies to both price limit and time limit. You don’t want to overspend, and a few places actually up their prices on Christmas Eve in the hope of catching you out. Similarly, if you get into town for 9am, you don’t want to spend all day browsing. Set a time limit and stick to it.
  4. Be nice to the staff. Trust me, they don’t want to be there any more than you do. Most places no longer give one and a half or double pay to people working Christmas Eve and Boxing Day. It’s not their fault you left shopping until last minute, just like all those people in the queue in front of you.
  5. Have patience. Queues and traffic are going to be a nightmare. What did you expect? Take a deep breath and try not to swear under your breath unless the person really deserved it. Then you have my blessing.

 

I think that’s all I can think of. Do you have any tips? How many of you are heading shopping today?
Before I forget, come join Jordanne, Francesca and me on the GRLPOWR account from 11pm for anyone who’s excited for Christmas!

 

Ktkinnes xx

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Uni and Blogging

For so many of us, there’s that constant choice between university stuff and taking time out for our blog. I mean, I planned to have this post written on Sunday so I could focus on university this week, but I spent so long doing university work that I ended up not getting to spend as much time blogging as I would’ve liked. Sound familiar?

 

Everyone makes promises to themselves that as of the new academic year we will do our best with our workload, and try and keep to the blogging pattern we’ve fallen into over the summer. In fact, it may take me another 3 months to figure out how frequently to post! Honestly. Did a blogging challenge last month and had amazing stats (well, amazing for me anyway, I’m no big blogger) and then this week hits and I’ve noticed a decrease. Is it because everyone’s back to university and school now? Or has my writing actually just gone downhill recently? By the way, these are rhetorical questions.

 

Also, I must apologise, my wifi is misbehaving tonight and the GRLPOWR girls and I are trying to organise Christmas on the account – exciting times ahead so make sure you’re following us on @GRLPOWRCHAT!

 

But yes, I’m getting distracted. As is often the case when blogging. It’s a hobby, somewhere to relax and something to do to pass time, which is why – for me – it’s important to keep it up while back at university. But the struggle of balance is hard.

 

It’s important to find that balance. You don’t want to risk grades dropping, nor do you want to lose any followers or stats. I mean, here I am on my 5th day in a row posting and I’ve got a planned break tomorrow, but I couldn’t not post today otherwise I’d have ruined my posting streak. See what I mean?

 

It’s for this reason that blogging is now what I do just before sleep. I’m really trying this year with university, doing all the extra work and making sure I know everything I’m being told. We’ll see if it’s made any difference come Christmas exams. Even today, hungover as I was from the GULGBTQ+ Launch Night last night, I dragged my rather sleepy and nauseous backside to my lectures and I actually felt better having been to them. I wasn’t lying moping in bed. Instead, I got a good walk, I saw friends who really should’ve been equally as hungover as me, and I felt if I had achieved that then I could achieve anything today!

 

So, while this isn’t a great post on how to juggle the two (yet), I hope you understand now why I may disappear every now and again, and if I don’t make a 9am post I will try and get one up asap.

 

But yes, advice. All I can advise is have a bit of a routine when it comes to how many hours of university work you have to do before you can blog, and keep a diary or planner of what’s happening when so that you can try and move things around better if you need to change plans last minute. I also find it helpful to always have one spare post saved as a draft for if I’ve forgotten to write one or haven’t had time to write the planned one for that day.

 

Now, if you’ll excuse me, there are several blogmas posts needing written!

Ktkinnes xx

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21st

Hi everyone! Sorry to have to try picking your brains but I decided to come and ask you a question.
For the last few weeks, Mum and Dad have been asking what I would like for my birthday. I’ve given them a few hints, such as a charm bracelet or a pearl necklace (these are both things I’ve wanted for years but never asked for until now) but they’ve decided they don’t like my suggestions. I half-jokingly asked for tickets to see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child by myself and they seemed to consider this on the condition I got myself to London and found myself somewhere to stay, but, since she’s continued to ask me for ideas, I don’t think they want to get me the tickets. 
So my question to you lovely friends is – what should I ask for? I don’t know their price range but nothing too expensive – we tend to go for about £100 maximum, sometimes more if there’s something we desperately want or need. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated! Comment below, tweet me, or email katiekinnes@msn.com!
Ktkinnes xx

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Okay, I’m Angry

Maybe angry is a bit strong but I can’t currently think of the right word and so it’ll stay as ‘angry’.

Anyone who’s been following my blog and twitter recently will be aware of the fact that I’m currently preparing a plan B for when (possibly if) I fail these resits and don’t make it back into university. Having come out of the 4th paper this morning, I decided to do the smart thing and look at full time jobs in Glasgow, college courses, and anything else I might be able to do instead of continuing along my current academic path. Now, I’m aware this isn’t giving you the reason why I’m angry but that bit of background knowledge was important to put in before I move to the main point of this post.

 

I did the usual, log in to the laptop, open up chrome, and search ‘jobs Glasgow’. This took me to indeed.co.uk where I set my preferences and started opening the links to see what I could apply for. The very first link was for Silverbean Coffee. I’ll share the ad with you here actually, sorry for the bad quality photo:


 Did you see it? The reason I’m so annoyed? No? Let me help you. Take a look at ‘Required Education’. Can someone please explain to me why it is necessary for me to have a bachelor’s degree to be able to make cups of coffee?? I mean, yes okay the coffee I made for myself yesterday wasn’t all that great but doesn’t mean I need a degree to be able to make coffee!!
Sorry, calming down a little now. I just don’t appreciate the fact that there are 16 year olds in this country who would do anything to get a part time or full time job, depending on where they are academically. Nowadays you can’t get anywhere without experience but you can’t get the experience because companies do things like this and block a lot of people from even considering applying.

Part of the reason I am so wound up about this is the implication that my £6750 a year course is only good enough to get me into a job at a coffee shop – God help me if I want an actual Grad job!

 

I’m still going to apply for it. I’ll let you know if I hear from them with a rejection or an interview but one thing is definite, if I’m lucky enough to get an interview for this position I will ask them why they feel the need to exclude those of us without a degree. I’ve also sent them an enquiry as to why this is their only listed requirement:


 

Have you been in a similar position or seem something equally as infuriating? Let me know!

 

Ktkinnes xx

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Well then

So this is a last minute post and I’m not sure how I feel about sharing it yet as I’m still forming my thoughts but then I remembered that that was one of the reasons I started blogging – to talk through my thoughts and ideas and possibly (hopefully) receive feedback from you lovely people. All I’ll say is please forgive me for the lack of continuity as my brain bounces from one thought to the next.
In the next 48 hours, I have exams 3 and 4 of my 5 resists. I’ve done the revision, I’ve completed past papers and tutorial questions and all the stuff you’re meant to do to prepare for an exam. And then today I hit the wall. You know the wall, don’t you? That one that sits there and you physically cannot break through it to continue. 

I woke up this morning asking myself why I was still trying. Yes, okay, today’s a bad day for a number of reasons that I can’t get into right now without crying and starting a pity party. You shouldn’t listen to your mind on a bad day, right? Except today isn’t the first I’ve felt like this. 

Ever since last week’s disastrous Physics paper, I’ve been seriously thinking about just leaving university. Unguided learning just isn’t for me. I’ve admitted that to myself in the last few days. I lack the motivation to complete simple homeworks. I struggle to persuade myself to get out of bed regardless of how much sleep I’ve had. There’s a complete lack of routine in my life and therefore no structure. Now, I know I’m the one who can fix that but I don’t think university is right for me.

I’ve been proud of myself for being at university. My cousins either didn’t go or dropped out quickly and I was always proud of myself for even just making it to second year. But I didn’t feel like I wanted to be here for any reason other than it’s what was expected of me. Yes, I’ve always wanted to be a teacher. But I’m not sure now that I do. To be honest I don’t have a clue what I want to do with my life. I’m 4 weeks off my 21st birthday and I still feel like the 13 year old who’s floating along as if she hasn’t any responsibilities. 

But I know tomorrow’s exam won’t go at all well. Even having gone to lectures and studied for ages last exam diet, I got a G2. To be honest, that’s better than I remembered. Could’ve sworn I got an H2 but there it is in black and white for you.


Seeing my grades displayed like that, surely you can now see for yourself why I’m considering just dropping out of university. 
To be honest, I’m even considering not showing up to tomorrow’s exam… Or Friday’s for that matter. But I know that would be stupid. Do I email my adviser and ask to meet him in the morning and explain to him how I’ve spent the entire summer revising but I know it’s not going to have made any difference? Do I tell him that I just want out but can’t face telling my parents that I dropped out? Yes. The truth is I would rather be kicked out of university than tell my parents I chose to walk out. It’s not like they’re paying for me to be here or helping me in any way. Apart from paying my phone bill and feeding me when I’m home, I’ve been completely financially independent since I started university in 2014. Big wow I hear you guys say, that was using a student loan and a maintenance loan. Those need paid back the minute I start earning. But if I can get a full time job and earn roughly £500 a month, I’d be pretty much where I am now. That’s 75 hours a month so not even 20 hours a week at minimum wage. That’s reasonable, right? 
To be honest, I don’t know why I’m asking these questions. You know as well as I do that I’ll go in tomorrow and Friday and sit those exams. I know I’ll fail them, you may have more faith in me but I’ve given up hope. Friday morning at 11:30 I will be beginning to look at full time jobs here in Glasgow. Who knows, maybe when I’m working I’ll be more involved in my blog. And maybe then I’ll be happier.
I don’t even know what I’ve said in this post, I’m just going to hit post and hope that you guys can give me some advice. If you don’t want to comment below, find me on Twitter (@kvburton657) or email me at katiekinnes@msn.com.
Thanks
Ktkinnes xx

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Thank you

Today I wanted to write a different kind of post. One that thanks someone who has really supported me recently, especially with these resits and everything else that’s been going through my mind. 1 Week Mary, I can’t actually thank you enough.
Thank you. Between your comments, advice and tweets, you’ve kept me going through the last lot of days. You somehow seem to know exactly what to say and when, and always manage to get me to smile – regardless of how my day’s going. You’re incredible at writing posts, too. They’re written so well and it’s clear that you’re interested in each one you write. With the perfect balance of humour, your posts provide a great place to come and read for a while, to forget any negativity, and restart my efforts with a new-found energy. I don’t know how you do it! 

Your positivity shines through all your words, whether on Twitter or on your blog, and helps lift those of us who have the pleasure of talking with you. Even just these little conversations during BeeChat inspired me to keep going! 

So, to finish off, thank you for all your support and for inspiring me to keep going. Keep up your amazing work!
Ktkinnes xx
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10 Things I Wish I’d Known At The Start

Having had a few days of not a lot of blogging, I decided to make a list of the 10 things I wish I’d known at the start of blogging.

  1. Twitter is your friend. There are so many amazing bloggers out there who can support you in every little thing. Sometimes you find these amazing people completely accidentally and find yourself getting really excited when they simply like one of your posts – this person is the one you owe a lot to. Be their friend and support them back in whatever way you can.
  2. It’s okay to not post daily. I struggle to actually post daily, sometimes I remember to schedule posts, other times I’m so far behind posting that I feel guilty for not being online 24/7. This guilt is completely unjustified.
  3. You don’t need to have a specific genre of a blog. Yes, it’s great to be so invested in a specific type of blogging but this doesn’t mean you can’t diversify and cover a wide range of things! Take a look at me, I review things, post ramblings, and rarely ever branch into fashion or beauty. I suppose you could say that I do have a genre then, but it’s an open one – one in which I can be as diverse as I want!
  4. Followers will stay if you disappear for a while. Everyone needs time off. I took a year away from the blog and came back to still find I had followers! This was great motivation to continue.
  5. Your statistics will fluctuate a lot, unless of course you’re a professional blogger, and this is 100% okay. Even last week, I went from 59 views one day, to 6 a few later. 
  6. Scheduling Tweets makes life so much easier. Got a post that didn’t get as much attention as you think it deserved? Get it back out there! I use Hootsuite and its so easy to use. You should consider it!
  7. Try and have your photos preprepared for any posts that might need them. Pictures really liven up your blog and so having them handy is always a help.
  8. If you’ve got a list of blogging ideas, you don’t need to worry about writers block. I try and keep a list on either my phone or laptop as these are the 2 things I have near me when blogging. 
  9. Join as many chats and groups as possible, through whatever platforms you can! There are always great people out there to give advice on anything and everything blog related. 
  10. Blogging is addictive. Once you get the bug for it, it takes over a lot! So enjoy it and always hold onto the reasons why you started blogging. 

Any other advice? Good luck to anyone just starting out!
Ktkinnes xx

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5 things I learnt at university

As I’m finished my second year, I thought I would give you some advice on things I learnt at university. Two years out of a possibly 4 year degree, you’d like to think I’d learnt more than just 5 things. You would be right, but here’s the five that were important to me.

  1. Sleep is really important if you don’t want to spend your entire time in bed sick. I don’t mean it’s okay to skip uni to catch up on sleep though!
  2. Not everyone comes to university knowing how to cook and clean. Someone told me off in halls for bleaching the sink because they didn’t ‘want to eat off plates that have been in a bleached sink’. Sorry darling but ask your mother how she cleaned your kitchen sink at home.
  3. If you have a small problem with someone, speak to them about it. I know 2 people who didn’t get on at all for the first semester and so after Christmas they sat down to talk about what was annoying them. They ended up best friends by the end of the second semester.
  4. Try everything at least once. Clubs and societies are a great laugh and there are so many to choose from! Why limit yourself to only 3 from the start?
  5. There’s nothing wrong with leaving a club early and getting the good food from the kebab shop on your way home. You’ll certainly feel more alive the next day!

So there you have it. I could’ve continued, but I’ll save that for another day.
Ktkinnes xx

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50 Questions to Free your mind

So, yesterday on my long train journey back from Edinburgh, I was browsing through blog posts to keep myself occupied. This has just reminded me I need to put music on my new phone before I travel again… I came across Morgan’s (from The Rose Quartz) blog post 50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind, an honestly answered list of 50 questions to get you thinking. As I read Morgan’s answers, I found myself mentally answering them too and so I decided to answer them here for you all to read! It took a long time, and I strongly considered posting them in batches of 10, but I decided to share them all at the one time. Feel free to read some and then return or whatever suits you! If you’ve any questions or comments, please feel free to leave them below!

 

  1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
    Does this mean how old do I feel or how old would I chose to be? And if it’s choose an age, if I’ve no concept of how old I am how am I meant to pick an age? Or is it just me that answers this question with more questions? If I could choose an age, I’d choose probably to be 12 again. However, today I feel like I could be in my thirties – tired of monotony and ready for a change. Ask me tomorrow and I could be feeling 6 or 7! I can never decide if I’m old or a child.
  2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
    Personally, I feel failing is worse than never trying. If you don’t try then it doesn’t count as failing, right? However, trying your best and yet being able to fail even after trying your best, at least you know you tried and it isn’t right for you. This is basically the way I’m feeling about my university career. Would I feel better having failed because I didn’t try? Or does knowing that I tried my best but still failed make me feel any better?
  3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
    I don’t know about you but I do so many things I don’t like because that’s what’s expected of me. Whether it’s family or friends, there’s a lot of pressure to do certain things certain ways and therefore we have very little time left to do the things we actually like doing. Unfortunately, to survive in this world, we need money and to get money we need to work, not necessarily working in something we enjoy.
  4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
    I’ll probably have said more than I’ve done – I never shut up!

  5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
    Only one thing? Then I’d change the world to make everyone more accepting of differences. Once equality is a given in society, people won’t start wars over things like money or religion.

  6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
    Either blogging, spending time with friends, playing with the pets, or reading. I love all of these four things and if it was possible to do these for currency (since this blog is a hobby, not for profit) then I’d love to spend all day every day doing this.

  7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
    Currently, I’m attempting to do something I believe in – university. If this doesn’t go well, then I’m afraid I’ll have to settle and do something just to make life easier. I hate the thought of settling but there are times in life we have to suck it up and get on with life.

  8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
    There is absolutely no way I’d have gone to university. Mightn’t have even sat A-Levels! Why spend 17 years of a 40 year life in education? I’d also have tried harder to be happy during the first 21 years of my life. Apart from that, I’d just live life to the fullest.

  9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
    I’ve always had a say in the course my life has taken, but until I moved out for university, it was definitely controlled mostly by my parents. However, they let me choose my secondary school regardless of the distance I would have to travel each day, they always let me explain my reasoning behind decisions and took it into consideration when it was possible, and they tried to be supportive of the choices I made – tried being the main choice of word.

  10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
    Doing things right is how I live my life mostly. If I’m doing the right thing at the same time? Well then that’s a win-win!

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  11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticising a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
    Having been in this situation, I subtly hinted towards the fact that I was friends with said person. When these hints weren’t picked up, I suggested that we change the topic as I was uncomfortable hearing them talk about a friend of mine in such a way. I pointed out to them that they probably wouldn’t be comfortable if said person heard their thoughts and opinions, and if the conversation were to continue then I would feel it necessary to inform my friend as to these peoples’ opinions.

  12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
    Live your life for you, no one else. I only realised this important piece of information in the last few months and, trust me, life gets so much easier when you allow yourself to live only for you.

  13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
    Without a doubt. Unless I’m being investigated by the police for allegedly breaking the law to save a loved one – in that case the answer is no, I would never break the law. I’m a perfect, law abiding citizen…

  14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
    I don’t really understand this question so apologies but I’m going to ignore this one.
  1. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
    Cutting onions. I’m a strange person and apparently slice onions the wrong way. Is there really a right way though? It all ends up the same way.

  2. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
    See above re ‘I’m a strange person’. Sometimes simple things can make me happy, such as seeing a dog out walking or a baby smiling away in a pram. Days when simple things make me happy are great days.

  3. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
    Anyone who knows me knows that one thing I really really want to do is have children. What’s holding me back? I’m a single, financially insecure, 20 year old who is in no way ready for that responsibility just yet. Maybe some day.

  4. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
    I suppose you could say that I need to let go of the hurt caused to me by the girls I used to call my friends, however I feel like the pain they caused gave me the inspiration to find people who actually like me for me and treat me with the same loyalty and respect I show them. So while I’m not letting it go, if I bumped into any of them on the street I would thank them for teaching me some important life lessons.

  5. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
    Hands down, no questions asked. It’s warm, sunny, and there are people there I class as family. Also, you can sit on a beach at 4 in the morning in a dress and not feel at all cold while looking up at the multitude of stars overhead.

  6. Do you push the lift button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the lift faster?
    It’ll come when it comes. If you’re in that much of a hurry, take the stairs.
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  7. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
    Well since I worry a lot anyway, I’d pick being a worried genius. Plus, who’s to say you can’t be joyful whilst being a worried genius?

 

  1. Why are you, you?
    Partly because this is the way I was brought up to be, partly because this is the way I want to be. I’m not going to continue to blame my faults on other people, but I can say that certain faults weren’t helped by certain people. I’m my own person and no one can change that.

  2. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
    I would like to hope so. If you know anyone who thinks differently, send them my way so I can learn how to be a better friend!

  3. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
    I think it would be worse to lose touch with a good friend who lives right near you. I had one friend in secondary school who made an effort to stay in touch with me, but only when I made an effort to stay in touch with her. She used to live really close to me but now with me practically living in Scotland it made it easier for us to drift apart. Yeah, it hurts, but that’s life. If we were meant to still be friends then we would be. Is that harsh?

  4. What are you most grateful for?
    The people I’ve met here in Glasgow and the friendships I’ve developed. There are 4 people I owe a lot to and they (hopefully) know who they are.

  5. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
    There are some memories I would love to forget. But then, there are some that I’ll hold with me forever. If I kept all my old memories and was never able to make any new ones, I think I’d be happy.

  6. Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
    The science student in me says no. A theory is only true as long as you can’t find the exception that disproves it. Don’t accept anything at face value. Take what you’re told or shown and question it in your own way, make up your own mind about what is or isn’t the truth.

  7. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
    My greatest fear is for something to happen to someone or for me to never get the chance to say goodbye to those people who are important to me. My dad’s aunt, my Papa, my granda, my dad’s uncle, a family friend, they all died without me getting to say goodbye or tell them how much I loved them. It hurt the most with dad’s uncle as I had the opportunity to go see him in hospital the day before he died but instead I chose to go into work and he died during the night before I could see him. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself for that.

  8. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
    Unfortunately, yes. But only because it helped shape me into the person I am today. Without that night, I wouldn’t have had the courage to move away from home and meet completely different people. And I certainly wouldn’t have started a blog where I came to share things I should’ve been sharing with my friends.

  9. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
    This is a really tough one as a lot of my childhood memories are all rolled into one. Basically, any of the memories from when I lived in Forfar, Scotland. I was young, naïve, and had no worries – of course I was happiest at that stage.

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    Rachel and Me (year unknown)

  10. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
    Sunday July 31st. It may sound pathetic to you big-time bloggers but I got 59 views on my blog, for simply sharing what was going through my head. I was inspired to continue, impassioned to write as much as I can and share everything I feel is worth sharing. 59 views might not seem like that many, but I felt alive and like someone actually cared about what I had to say.

  11. If not now, then when?
    I’m definitely more of a night-time person than a daytime person.

  12. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
    The illusion that I could achieve it if I tried to. If it hasn’t happened yet, there’s still the possibility that it might and that’s a lot easier to deal with than the possibility of trying to achieve it and failing miserably.

  13. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
    A couple of times. One person from back home had the ability to have that sort of a day with me. Someone I met in Ibiza had that effect (he couldn’t really speak much English and my Spanish is pathetic). A few people here in Glasgow. If you’re feeling down, just spend a day with them or in their company and you’re sure to feel amazing even after just 10 minutes of being with them without conversation.

  14. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
    There’s a fine line between love and hate. Sometimes the love of your religion can cause you to hate the possibility of other religions or ideas. If your religion teaches love, this love isn’t only meant to extend to people of the same religion as you. I was raised in a protestant family, hearing about The Troubles in Northern Ireland and the fact that Christians were fighting Christians over small, insignificant things. I was taught that it doesn’t matter what someone’s religion is, the religion my parents and sister believe in teaches to love everyone equally, even if you feel they don’t deserve your love.

  15. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
    No

  16. If you just won a million pounds, would you quit your job?
    That involves getting a job first to be able to quit it, right? I think I would use the money to help me set up a business/company to help others and then take a back seat, almost like a silent partner in the business. That way I’d have the best of both worlds. Queue for a song anyone?

  17. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy?
    More work that I enjoy. If it’s something I love, I’d happily dedicate all my time and resources to that job.

  18. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
    But I’m trying to change that. Take each day as a new day and treat it as such, who knows where you’ll end up.

  19. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
    I’m not sure to be honest, I rarely act on ideas. I think it’s most likely to be the night I decided to start my blog. Over 2 years ago. Wow, I don’t really do ‘follow your heart’ stuff do I?
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  20. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
    Referring back to my biggest fear being not getting to say goodbye to people I care about, this would honestly kill me. Do I gather as many of my friends and family in one place to say goodbyes all around? Or do I pick the ones who are most important to me? Can I die in this situation too? That wouldn’t be as bad I think…

  21. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
    Life’s too short and why would you ever want to be famous? And since beauty is in the eye of the beholder, being attractive is subjective.

  22. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
    I’m currently alive. I’m breathing, eating, coping. Truly living is enjoying life to the max. Doing what makes you happy, regardless of what tomorrow may bring. I think most of us are alive rather than living, which in itself is sad. We work in jobs we hate to earn pitiful amounts of money to buy things we neither need or want to impress people we don’t even particularly like. I want to live, not be alive.

  23. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
    Whenever you feel strongly about it. The minute you start considering whether it’s worth the risk, your mind is made up that you want to do it. Don’t let your fear control you.

  24. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
    Because we’re taught that mistakes are wrong and embarrassing. You thought that man you randomly hugged was your dad? Everyone laughs at how silly you were. If you weren’t embarrassed enough at your lack of awareness, you’re suddenly the punchline to a joke. We hate it happening to ourselves and so enjoy when it’s someone else who’s made the mistake. But mistakes are okay, as the question says – we learn from them. Coming to university might have been a mistake for me, however if I hadn’t moved away and tried it then I would never have learnt all the lessons the last 2 years have taught me. Embrace your mistakes and don’t let anyone put you down for making them. At least they were your mistakes and not the mistakes of others that you’re learning second hand!

  25. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
    I think I would’ve come out to my friends and family a lot sooner if nobody was going to judge me. However, when you live in Northern Ireland, which is essentially like travelling back in time by at least 100 years, you learn quickly that if you’re ‘different’ people won’t accept you.

  26. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
    I always notice the sound of my own breathing. I’m a heavy breather. The last time I was properly aware of it though was our last night in Ibiza when I was sharing the bed with 2 other people and trying to pretend to be asleep.


  1. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
    I love blogging and being with friends. Hopefully my new dedication to the blog is proof enough of this, and my willingness to drop everything for my friends should be testament enough to this.

  2. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
    I’d like to think that I’d remember the time I accidentally ended up at the Edinburgh Fringe Festival! If not, I always have my blog to look back at, or TImehop will be there to remind me of how embarrassing I am.

  3. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
    As of Monday morning, I made the decision that my decisions are going to be the ones that matter. I’ll accept people’s thoughts or suggestions but I want to start deciding things by myself for myself.

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Ktkinnes xx

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Honestly….

Honestly, today hasn’t been the productive day I was hoping for. If you’ve been following my blog or Twitter recently, you may have noticed that I have resits coming up. These resits decide whether or not I get to continue university and become a teacher – the one thing I’ve thought about for years. And yet, here I am with absolutely no motivation to revise or be proactive about it. In fact, the only thing I can build up the energy to do today is eat, watch Netflix or blog. None of these are what I’d planned.
I came back to the flat last night and the place needs a good clean. Then again, what do you expect when the people living in it are in work during the day and crash into bed the minute they come back? When I saw it last night, my immediate thought was “right, I’ll clean first thing in the morning”. Still hasn’t happened. 

I wanted to blast through my notes for Wednesday’s exam so that I can dedicate my time tomorrow to Tuesday’s paper. The notes are in front of me but I can’t get past the first page. Hell I can’t even bring myself to read The Cursed Child which arrived today in the post! What sort of Harry Potter fan am I?
The final, and probably biggest, disappointment is that I want to be healthier. I want to look at chocolate and crisps and takeaway and say “no, I’m not having that” but instead I’ve binged out and already ordered dominos for 6pm today. Is this just because I’m having a lazy day or is it I’m simply a lazy person?
I think it has to be the latter unfortunately. I’ve always known I lack the get up and go gene that my sister has but I’ve never really accepted it. I’ve found myself today looking around my bedroom in the flat thinking about how to personalise it and make it somewhere I actually want to live. All of this probably isn’t helped by the fact it’s cold and grey outside when all I can think about is the heat and sun of Ibiza, my mind going back to this time last week. 
If you have any advice on what to do or how to sort my life out, I’d really appreciate your help. Anything is better than sitting here wallowing in self pity for a situation I’ve got myself into.
Ktkinnes xx