Tonight my case is zipped up and beside the door. My passport is beside my bed and the alarm is about to be set. It’s been a busy day!
This morning on Facebook I saw an interesting article on saving money, the link can be found here. Basically it suggests, for anyone who has difficulty saving money, that for every non essential thing you buy, you put the equivalent amount of money into a savings account. This in principle should work and I will definitely give it a go when I’m back in student ville but for now I shall happily keep spending money on “luxuries” as food is being covered by the parents. Hopefully next summer I’ll have a better job and will be able to help out with the cost of living at home! Now if only the government would stop giving us a student loan based on our parents’ income…
Another thing I would like to briefly mention is another website that I would ask a few of you to maybe look at? I have a friend who writes fanfic on this website and, having only found out about it last night, I decided that tonight I shall have a proper nosy through it before attempting to sleep. Yesterday’s post was based on Les Mis and can be found here http://archiveofourown.org/works/4472012
I hope she doesn’t mind but I’ve copied and pasted it to here so all credit goes to her, I just wanted to share it.
The worst part is, Eponine can’t even hate Cosette. Cosette is lovely and kind and genuinely nice and oh it stings because Cosette and Marius are perfect for each other. Similar but complementary and almost sickening sweet together. She is the best person for him. And Marius deserves the best.
Marius deserves someone like Cosette. Someone who can make him happy- and Cosette does make him happy. Eponine can see it, in the way he’s smiling more and laughing more, in the way he’s more confident.
But everyone just acts so sorry for her and she hates it. Enjolras asks her opinions on things. Combeferre lends her books. Chetta invites her round for movie nights. Nothing that they haven’t done before, and she’s grateful for it, she is. But it feels like they’re hovering anxiously, waiting for her to break down.
She isn’t going to, though. She’s been pining after Marius for years. If anything she should be thanking Cosette. Maybe now she can finally get over him.
But she sees them together and she just wants to shout at Cosette. “How does it feel?! How does it feel to be adored by him?” Because Marius does adore Cosette. There’s no other word for it. She can see it in his eyes when he talks about Cosette, when he looks at her.
Cosette is so pretty, with her butterscotch hair and her lovely blue eyes. But more than that, Cosette is good. Eponine is jaded and bitter, but Cosette just feels so much. She’s had a hard life and she’s came through smiling anyway. She sees the joy and the hope and the beauty in everything.
And Eponine could never, ever match up to that.
So she goes dancing with Jehan and drinking with Grantaire, because they understand unrequited love as much as she does.
And she acts like she’s fine and Cosette bakes cupcakes and cookies and brings them to the meetings and Eponine smiles and laughs and inside she’s hurting, breaking.
Because Eponine can’t be anything more than she is. And Marius has never loved her for that. And he never will.
Finally, as a brief ending to what has been a longer post than I expected, I just wanted to say another huge thank you to everyone who reads my posts. Every view, like and comment means a lot to me so thank you very much! Good luck for the upcoming week!