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Day 18 – Food

What food makes you feel good and why?

Okay so by rights the question here should be ‘What food doesn’t make you feel good?’ – I love everything! Nothing beats a good homemade lasagne where the cheese has gone brown in places and the layers are clear, served with a warm garlic bread and salad. Or in summer, a barbecue is the go to food!

However, the one meal that will forever make me feel good is Christmas dinner. I’ve already started planning the Christmas dinner for our flat in December!

We always have a Bloody Mary Soup for a starter. I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned it here but it’s basically a tomato soup with celery, Tabasco sauce and vodka, served with a freshly baked petit pain. Of course, the main course is the an important part. That succulent turkey, served with a slice of gammon, stuffing, mashed potatoes, roast potatoes, carrot and parsnip, brussel sprouts, and a good gravy! Who here doesn’t love christmas dinner?

Our desserts are always the same – a lemon meringue, a trifle, and homemade christmas pudding. No one in the flat likes christmas pudding though so I may make myself a mini one just to be awkward… Finally, we always finish, or try to finish, with a cheese board. There’s a reason we start eating so early!

There’s just something about the Christmas Dinner that makes it special. I don’t know if it’s because we’re all feeling festive, or if it’s because the family are together and in a good mood, or what. But it is definitely my favourite food.

Ktkinnes xxx

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Day 16 – The Song

What song inspires you and why?

Okay so I have a lot of songs that inspire me for a lot of different things. Recently rediscovering Who Said from Hannah Montana reminded me I can be anything I want to be – no one can tell me I can’t except me!

The song that always speaks to me though is The Story by Sara Ramirez. I first heard this song back when I was binge watching Grey’s Anatomy. The musical episode has divided fans – a bit like marmite! I couldn’t really tell you what it is about this song that made me fall in love with it, or if it was in fact the moment I realised how much I love Sara Ramirez. I now have a poster in my room of the lyrics to this song – I’ll post them below. But please, if it’s all you do today, please please listen to this song!

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I’ve been
And how I got to where I am

But these stories don’t mean anything
When you’ve got no one to tell them to
It’s true, I was made for you

I climbed across the mountaintops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But, baby, I broke them all for you

Oh because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do, and I was made for you

You see the smile that’s on my mouth
It’s hiding the words that don’t come out
And all of my friends who think that I’m blessed
They don’t know my head is a mess

No, they don’t know who I really am
And they don’t know what I’ve been through
Like you do, and I was made for you

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I’ve been
And how I got to where I am

Oh, but these stories don’t mean anything
When you’ve got no one to tell them to
It’s true that I was made for you
Oh, yeah, well, it’s true that I was made for you

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Day 15 – The Trip

Haha okay so this one is really easy to pick. What is my most memorable trip and why? Obviously Ibiza!

 

The summer between finishing school and starting university, I went to Ibiza with my parents and my sister. We stayed in an adult’s only hotel and it was the first holiday in 8 or 9 years that we didn’t have Mum’s mum with us. Rachel was the youngest guest there and so we got a lot more attention than other guests – although I think her looks might’ve had something to do with that. It was the first holiday we went on that I actually felt 100% comfortable and like I could’ve stayed longer than our two weeks.

 

As a result, we went again the next two years! However, they have seriously upped the prices due to a recent refurbishment – who pays over £2000 per person for two weeks half board? I can cruise for less than that. It upsets me that I won’t be able to go back next summer, we’ve made some real friends in the staff there, never mind some of the other guests. If you have the money, I would seriously recommend Sol Beach House Ibiza, however I won’t be back for quite some time now due to the sudden increase in price.

 

Ktkinnes xx

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Day 14 – My Dreams

Why are my dreams important and what are they? Well… For as long as I can remember, I’ve dreamt of being a mum and being a teacher. I’m currently working on getting into teaching – I’m studying physics at university in the hope of doing a PGCE or a PDGE as it’s known here in Scotland. I’m emailing schools, asking to do work shadowing for the month of June after my exams have all ended, as the more experience I have the more likely I am to be accepted for a course.

 

Being a mum may be slightly more difficult/complicated but I’ll figure it out somehow.

 

One of the longest running dreams of mine was finally reached in May this year. For as long as I can remember, I’ve dreamed of going to Disneyland – didn’t matter to me whether it was Paris or in the USA. At the age of 20, I finally got to go and actually I’m so happy I was older when I first went. I had the energy to keep going. I watched the parades and was tall enough that it didn’t matter if the adults with their children blocked my view. I could go on all the rides I wanted to, and could sit and wait for my friends if they were on a ride I didn’t want to go on. No one could tell me not to buy too many soft toys, and when I watched the night time show, I felt the shivers down my spine. It was an incredible experience and one which will be with me for many years to come.

 

 

Ktkinnes xx

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Day 23 – Achievements

What is your greatest achievement and how did it feel to achieve it?


To be honest, this one caused me a lot of difficult when writing. And while I’m at it, I’d like to apologise for the fact this is centred and formatted weirdly as I’m writing on the app on my phone and so have no idea how to fix what I’ve done.

My greatest achievement isn’t something that I think about frequently. I set mini goals and am happy when I achieve even the small things. Also, what’s a big achievement to me may not be what you consider an achievement so again, sorry.

However, I would have to say that my biggest achievement so far in life is getting in to university. I may have messed up a bit since then and be repeating a year… but I still got here and that’s at least something!

Ktkinnes xx

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Day 13 – The Gift

Now this one is difficult to write. I recently had my 21st birthday and received so many incredibly thoughtful and meaningful presents from friends and family! For this post, I’ve to talk about a gift that I cherish and why – but it’s so hard to pick just one!

 

Not going to lie, my friends bought me an amazing gift this year – one I will have forever. They got me a personalised calendar with pictures of us and other friends in it, as well as a picture of things I like. Of course, their names are on it in prime positions, but it just goes to show that they know what they mean to me. It’s going to be something I’ll always have, and I’ll definitely always remember who gave it to me!

 

Ktkinnes xxx

 

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Day 12 – My Routine

What do I like about my routine and why does it make me happy?

 

Firstly, I currently have no set routine. I’ve just started back to uni and am only in for roughly 2 hours a day this semester. This means I’m awake at 9 to have a shower, do my hair and makeup, and have a decent breakfast. After lectures, I’m doing some extra questions to build on what I’ve learnt that day, as well as reading over the notes taken that day, and anything I should read in preparation for the next day’s class. On Wednesday nights from tomorrow onwards, I have LGBTQ+ which I actually am really looking forward to getting back to. In the evenings, I try and have dinner at a reasonable time and pick which Twitter Chats I want to get involved in that night, before making time for reading through blogs and maybe actually writing some posts myself!

 

I’m really sorry this isn’t a great post… I just don’t have a routine at the minute!

 

 

Ktkinnes xx

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Day 22 – Challenges

Helloooo my lovely friends! Okay so you may be forgiven for forgetting I was participating in the 30 Days of Gratitude Blogging Challenge, especially considering I basically skipped 10 days worth of them… But have no fear! I shall post a brief one for each of these throughout the day – I’m actually going to write them the minute I finish this post.

 

So, as you can see, today’s theme is Challenges with the subtitle of What is your greatest challenge in life and how do you plan to overcome it? Haha well let’s just put out there that I picked a hard one to come back in on!

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Before I could even begin to write this post, I asked myself ‘What constitutes as a challenge?’. The Cambridge Online Dictionary defines it as “(the situation of being faced with) something that needs great mental or physical effort in order to be done successfully and therefore tests a person’s ability.”  To me, personally, a challenge is something that prevents you or makes it more difficult for you to achieve the goals you set for yourself. If this is the case, then I had a lot more to think about!

 

I had to ask myself – what do I consider a challenge in my life? Blogging daily? We all know how well that’s been going – not. Going to university and getting a degree? We’re working on that one, patience young grasshopper. My relationship with my family? Ha, don’t get me started. Wow, there were a lot I could think of! However, I realised that none of these are really a proper challenge – more things that my self-doubt hinders or affects. That’s when it hit me. My greatest challenge, at this point in my life anyway, is my self confidence.

 

 

When conversing with the lovely ladies at GRLPOWR, and all the other amazing people involved in their chat on Sunday 18th September based on Confidence, there came a question – ‘How far would you go to gain confidence? (Surgery, buy things, etc)’. While replying truthfully, I stated that I constantly spend money on makeup and clothes to try and look better and more confident. I admitted that I considered either laser skin treatment for my acne scarring or laser hair removal, and I had also looked into laser eye surgery – all in the hope of becoming ‘prettier’ according to societies rules. I heavily rely on the things I buy and how I look to try and get people to like me – as someone once said to me, all I talk about is TV and I’m incredibly boring because of it. Well since then I’ve started talking a lot more about blogging too so I guess I’m just a nightmare to be around.

 

Woah, sorry, this was meant to be a post about overcoming challenges – not focusing on what the challenge is or how I feel about it! But that last paragraph was to give you a basic insight into my mind. I hate being left out of things, even if it’s nothing important. There’s always a constant worry in the back of my mind that no one likes me and they all just put up with me because I’ve attached myself to them. I know that it’s not true (hopefully) but it’s there and it’s because of my low self confidence.

 

It’s not something I can just get over. It’s not a quality I like about myself, ha the irony of having low self confidence because of problems caused by low self confidence, but it’s one I can work on. Back in August, I wrote about my promise to myself. I’ve recently started doing things because they make me happy and I want to do them. I’m getting more involved in extracurricular things at uni because, as Nuala said earlier, there are so many opportunities while at uni that disappear the minute we leave this place!

 

Planning to overcome low self confidence isn’t really effective in my opinion, simply because it takes a lot longer to change a thought or opinion than it does to change or fix a physical problem. Yes, there are ways to physically change to increase self confidence, but why should I have to change to feel better about myself? So yes, we’re working on that.

 

By the way, I don’t know if any of you have realised but I often refer to myself as ‘we’ – please ignore this, I am a me.

 

 

Thanks for reading!

Ktkinnes xxx

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Day 11 – Knowledge

I’m getting there with these posts! What one has been your favourite so far, given the fact we’re a third of the way through them now? Well, today’s theme is Knowledge with the question What have you learnt and how has it changed your life?

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Most recently, I’ve learnt that my happiness is key. For as long as I can remember, I’ve focused on the happiness of those around me over my own feelings, to the point that on my birthday I was overly stressed and actually ended up crying I was that stressed out – not a great thing to do in front of friends and family! That was the turning point, and from that point on I realised that they were all there to ensure I had a good time – I was the one who was meant to be enjoying myself, not them. Well, obviously they were meant to be enjoying themselves but you know what I mean.

 

Back in November, I learnt that I am who I am and if other people can’t accept that then stuff the lot of them. If they can’t accept me for being the person I am then they don’t deserve my attempts to be the person they want me to be. Not sure that sentence even makes sense (five cups of coffee in less than two hours can do some crazy things for your motivation) but we’ll go with it.

 

It took a lot of pain and ended friendships back in school but I learnt that not everyone is going to like me. That’s fine, that’s their loss. Similar to above but for different reasons. I was a loner while at school. No one really liked me, and they didn’t have to search long for a reason not to like me. I’m weird. I have bizarre interests and I easily become obsessed with things very quickly. However, since starting uni, I learnt to love my ‘weird’ quirks. Who cares if I ramble away to myself? Why shouldn’t I talk about the things that interest me? And what harm is there in owning over 200 soft toys at the age of 21 and crying when someone suggests getting rid of just one? I am me and nothing’s going to change that. Since making my promise to me back in August, I’ve found myself more willing to forgive myself for the faults that I’ve so long used to define me. I’ve an amazing group of friends at university, I’ve met some incredible bloggers since I brought my ‘weirdness’ online, and I have absolutely zero regrets about any of it. I’ve learnt that if I want something and put the work in, I can do it. And I’m taking that ethos into this upcoming year. I will get my degree and become a teacher. I will achieve my goals. And most importantly, I will continue to be the best me there possibly is. There’s only one of me and that me is incredible. Just wish I’d learnt it sooner!

 

 

Ktkinnes xx

 

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Day 9 -My Books

Firstly, before I go any further…

Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me! Happy birthday dear Katie, Happy Birthday to me!

Sorry, just had to get that out of my system! And now, I bring you What books have had a great influence on you and why?

 

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This is another one of my favourite topics. And The Mountains Echoed made me fall in love with everyone in it and I still couldn’t tell you why. Another favourite was definitely The 5 People You Meet In Heaven, followed closely by Elsewhere. Both gave me a new way to think of death and I couldn’t recommend them more.

 

This year, I read The Freedom Writers’ Diary and I fell in love with it – here’s the review The Freedom Writers Diary! It inspired me to keep going through every struggle and reach my highest potential. You need to read it now. No, seriously, go and buy it or order it from your local library. Go!

 

Ktkinnes xxx

 

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