I’m getting there with these posts! What one has been your favourite so far, given the fact we’re a third of the way through them now? Well, today’s theme is Knowledge with the question What have you learnt and how has it changed your life?
Most recently, I’ve learnt that my happiness is key. For as long as I can remember, I’ve focused on the happiness of those around me over my own feelings, to the point that on my birthday I was overly stressed and actually ended up crying I was that stressed out – not a great thing to do in front of friends and family! That was the turning point, and from that point on I realised that they were all there to ensure I had a good time – I was the one who was meant to be enjoying myself, not them. Well, obviously they were meant to be enjoying themselves but you know what I mean.
Back in November, I learnt that I am who I am and if other people can’t accept that then stuff the lot of them. If they can’t accept me for being the person I am then they don’t deserve my attempts to be the person they want me to be. Not sure that sentence even makes sense (five cups of coffee in less than two hours can do some crazy things for your motivation) but we’ll go with it.
It took a lot of pain and ended friendships back in school but I learnt that not everyone is going to like me. That’s fine, that’s their loss. Similar to above but for different reasons. I was a loner while at school. No one really liked me, and they didn’t have to search long for a reason not to like me. I’m weird. I have bizarre interests and I easily become obsessed with things very quickly. However, since starting uni, I learnt to love my ‘weird’ quirks. Who cares if I ramble away to myself? Why shouldn’t I talk about the things that interest me? And what harm is there in owning over 200 soft toys at the age of 21 and crying when someone suggests getting rid of just one? I am me and nothing’s going to change that. Since making my promise to me back in August, I’ve found myself more willing to forgive myself for the faults that I’ve so long used to define me. I’ve an amazing group of friends at university, I’ve met some incredible bloggers since I brought my ‘weirdness’ online, and I have absolutely zero regrets about any of it. I’ve learnt that if I want something and put the work in, I can do it. And I’m taking that ethos into this upcoming year. I will get my degree and become a teacher. I will achieve my goals. And most importantly, I will continue to be the best me there possibly is. There’s only one of me and that me is incredible. Just wish I’d learnt it sooner!