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Day 11 – Knowledge

I’m getting there with these posts! What one has been your favourite so far, given the fact we’re a third of the way through them now? Well, today’s theme is Knowledge with the question What have you learnt and how has it changed your life?

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Most recently, I’ve learnt that my happiness is key. For as long as I can remember, I’ve focused on the happiness of those around me over my own feelings, to the point that on my birthday I was overly stressed and actually ended up crying I was that stressed out – not a great thing to do in front of friends and family! That was the turning point, and from that point on I realised that they were all there to ensure I had a good time – I was the one who was meant to be enjoying myself, not them. Well, obviously they were meant to be enjoying themselves but you know what I mean.

 

Back in November, I learnt that I am who I am and if other people can’t accept that then stuff the lot of them. If they can’t accept me for being the person I am then they don’t deserve my attempts to be the person they want me to be. Not sure that sentence even makes sense (five cups of coffee in less than two hours can do some crazy things for your motivation) but we’ll go with it.

 

It took a lot of pain and ended friendships back in school but I learnt that not everyone is going to like me. That’s fine, that’s their loss. Similar to above but for different reasons. I was a loner while at school. No one really liked me, and they didn’t have to search long for a reason not to like me. I’m weird. I have bizarre interests and I easily become obsessed with things very quickly. However, since starting uni, I learnt to love my ‘weird’ quirks. Who cares if I ramble away to myself? Why shouldn’t I talk about the things that interest me? And what harm is there in owning over 200 soft toys at the age of 21 and crying when someone suggests getting rid of just one? I am me and nothing’s going to change that. Since making my promise to me back in August, I’ve found myself more willing to forgive myself for the faults that I’ve so long used to define me. I’ve an amazing group of friends at university, I’ve met some incredible bloggers since I brought my ‘weirdness’ online, and I have absolutely zero regrets about any of it. I’ve learnt that if I want something and put the work in, I can do it. And I’m taking that ethos into this upcoming year. I will get my degree and become a teacher. I will achieve my goals. And most importantly, I will continue to be the best me there possibly is. There’s only one of me and that me is incredible. Just wish I’d learnt it sooner!

 

 

Ktkinnes xx

 

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Day 10 – Nature

Whoops okay so I’m now behind on the challenge but it’s all because of my birthday celebrations – it’s not every year you turn 21, is it? So in order to catch up, I’ll hopefully be posting 2 of these a day until I’m back on track. I’ve also got a couple of guest posts to write-up so please be patient until I get back into the swing of things!

 

Saturday’s theme was Nature and Why I Love the Outdoors. Now, when I saw this I was filled with dread. Anyone who knows me knows I would much rather be curled up in bed with Netflix than outside in the fresh air so here goes.

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I love the seaside or the coast. Open water appeals to me. In fact, I’m currently at the window seat on the ferry to Scotland just so I can look out at the open water. There’s something oddly freeing about being such a small person in such a vast body of water, don’t you agree? Listening to the waves lap at the sand of a beach has always put me to sleep, the soft splash of the waves breaking over rocks at the coast. One of my favourite places to visit in Northern Ireland is the Antrim Coast for this very reason. On Thursday, we took a drive up towards the Giant’s Causeway and ended up crossing the Carrick-a-rede rope bridge to just be surrounded by the water. It’s so calming, even during a storm. You can never have an ugly-looking sea or ocean. They have so much personality even. In fact, my ideal house would be in a city but on the coast if that were to ever be at all possible.

My second favourite thing about the outdoors would have to be forests. Being surrounded by trees in the autumn just makes me feel alive. All the colours, sounds, and activity. Knowing there are trees there that are older than my granny. If trees could talk, they’d certainly have some stories to tell! When walking through Tollymore Forest Park in Newcastle, Northern Ireland, the rabbits and birds and the sound of the streams, it’s just so peaceful and I feel relaxed – as if nothing can go wrong.

I suppose though, even just walking through the streets of Glasgow I find myself loving the outdoors. Being a people person, I could walk for hours just people-watching and enjoying the smells and sounds around me. That little glimpse of sunshine in the grey sky, lighting the red bricks on the older buildings, or illuminating the bell tower of Glasgow University. The sound of everyone rushing to their next lecture or heading home for that all too necessary nap before yet another night on the town. Hearing all the accents and voices blending together amongst the sound of cars and buses as everyone goes about their daily business, occasionally met with the sound of birds overhead, flying back to their nests in the nearby parks. Smelling the exhaust from the traffic, the concoction of different deodorants, perfumes and aftershave, sometimes it’s difficult to smell the freshly baked bread in the nearby bakeries. But I wouldn’t swap any of it for anything.

 

So, I guess in a way I really do love the outdoors. Yeah, I guess you could say that.

 

 

Ktkinnes xx